As a teenager I self harmed… a lot. It was an almost daily occurrence for me, for many years, as a way for me to deal with the internal pain that I felt inside. Pain that I wasn’t able to express.
20 years later I have done so much healing and feel very comfortable in who I am. I often forget about the scarring on my arms, that I no longer hide, and am surprised when people mention it. It no longer figures in my awareness.
However this afternoon I was at an appointment with my bio-dynamic osteopath. He had picked up on an energetic block around my shoulder blades and was working on releasing this. However what he ended up doing was reconnecting my arms energetically back to my body and to my intuition.
What I hadn’t realised was that as a way for me to cause myself that much harm all those years ago, I had needed to disconnect from my arms and this connection had never been restored.
As he worked, I felt surges of energy pulsing down from my head, through my arms and into my hands – like they had just been connected into an electrical socket.
Then as he touched both the palm of my hand and my third eye, I felt a rush of joy, I literally couldn’t stop laughing and smiling, it was as though my soul was rejoicing and the universe was smiling down at me – finally I could be complete again.
My arms were no longer energetically disconnected.
What I also found incredibly fascinating as I felt this shift happen within me, because I literally felt my brain reorganise itself too, was that I could see that this was linked to many blocks that I had been experiencing.
Blocks around writing and sharing my story and my work, writing posts and articles like this one. Blocks around channelling healing energy and light codes through my hands, as well as blocks around doing Reiki and other such energy work.
As I write this a day later (and this is the fastest blog I have ever written) my hands are still buzzing with energy, they feel alive. Words are flowing easily and the connection feels restored.
After reading this I wonder if you feel you might be disconnected to a part of your body too?
I would love to hear your thoughts and experience around this and how this resonates with you. Please post any comments that you have below or you can email me.
Kinesiologist, Damara Wellbeing